Christmas

I love this time of year but for me it brings such sad memories. I am so happy for the family that I have here but I also miss so much the family who has passed. I think the holidays are so hard for so many reasons. I wish so much that I could be spending them with my mother. I just wish that I would have had more time with her. I love every second I get to spend with my family but it just doesn't feel complete without my mom. I just have such a hard time accepting that she is really gone. I still here her voice and wish so much that she got to meet my kids and play with them. I feel so cheated that she had to go so early I guess I just don't understand why. Mom I love you so much and just hope that you are watching over us and feel all of our love for you. I know that every one of us wish so much you were here with us.